Oh Monday. Today was been very stressful and it is only 12:30pm? How does this happen? Oh I know, I stop having faith that God is the driver of my life and I FREAK OUT! Ugh I hate when that happens. I am trying to calm down, remembering who controls my life and that,
"He has plans for me, they are plans for good, not for disaster, to give me a future and hope." Jer. 29: 11
That was a memory verse of mine last month....oh how quickly I forget. What am I stressed about? Well it doesn't really matter. What matters more, is that I serve a loving and giving God. So that is what I am focusing on today!
Sunday AA and I were supposed to go out for our last long run before this weekend. Well the sun was out...and so was the wind. We got a mile in a my hat almost blew off it was so windy. After much discussion, we decided I would run back to the car and pick AA up in an hour. We both agree that I cannot get sick before this weekend. So I ran super fast back to the car, I had a 7 year old rollerblader in front of me, who was pacing me! It was great! Drove to the gym, ran 30 minutes, back in the car to pick up AA. I finished 5 miles. AA finished almost 8. I am okay with that.
So today, here is what I know about the last 3 months of training and this weekend:
1. I have been a horrible training partner to AA. Not only getting PE, but being moody and not confident has not helped him be confident this weekend. I am sorry AA.
2. Am I ready for this weekend? I have no clue. Not one.
3. It was been 40 degrees, raining and windy every training run we have gone out one. Dallas: 85 degrees no wind. Awesome.
4. Will my lungs, heart and blood hold up this weekend? Again, no clue.
5. Will I finish, I sure hope so.
6. No matter what happens, is God good. YES!
Shelby, We have never formally been introduced, but I am Aaron's aunt Wendi (Jerry's brother Robert's wife). I found the link to your blog after reading Sara's facebook page and a link to her blog. I just want you to know that after reading what you have been through, you are an inspiration. I greatly admire your courage and determination! I don't know if you know it or not, but Robert had 2 major PE's about 2 years ago; one in the main brach of each lung (and also several small ones elsewhere) and was very sick. The doctors say it is a miracle he made it through alive. I praise God for that every day! We know what you are going through with your PE's. It takes time to get back to normal and regain your strength, but it sounds like you are doing terriffic. You have a very positive attitude. I just wanted to stop by and say "hi" and let you know how much encouragement I got reading your blog. I suffer from major depression and it was just what I needed to read at this point in time. The Lord certianly knows what he is doing!! I wish you all the best in your race coming up and I will be praying for you.
ReplyDeleteLove, Wendi Lanting- your aunt by marriage. :)