Friday, January 28, 2011


Someone once told me "you have a lot of confidence." I wasn't sure how to take that. I still am not sure what to think of it. Sometimes when people have "confidence" they are cocky. And I DEFINITELY do not want to be that. And if you were to ask me my top 5 characteristics, confidence would not be even close to the top of the list. I mean, not even on the list at all. And what got me thinking about all of this was something that has happened this week. I was sick for pretty much the whole week (I think I might be feeling better, knock on wood!), and against my better judgment I stuck to my running plan. Well that just didn't work. I was sick with a chest cold, so when I started running, it was like I was gasping for air and my heart rate was WAY to high WAY to quickly. I couldn't run for more then 4 minutes. And of course because I guess I don't listen to my better judgment at all I tried and tried again, day after day. And each day I would get off the darn treadmill and be kind of sad. My confidence in running was completely out the window and I was supposed to be in full training mode. I even told AA last night, in a completely dramatized voice, "what if I never am able to run again?" Lord please help that amazing man!

Confidence is a funny thing. It is there one second and then completely gone the next. Thoughts?

1 comment:

  1. I can totally relate Shelbs! One thought is: what time of the month is it? :o) Ok, to preface this is not a spiritual answer at all but I can track my mood/confidence all based on where I am in my cycle. The 2nd week I am on cloud 9 and feel like I can tackle the world (i.e. run the marathon), the 3rd week I am in middle and by the 4th week (especially the 5 days before the big day) I am the "woe is me, the world is against me, I cannot do anything and life is so hard". Understanding the body (and hormones) God has given me has helped me understand and work through life's "so-to-seem life low point's" time and time again. Just my tidbit and to say ... don't worry, you will run again! ;o) Love you!