Friday, January 28, 2011

Confidence

Someone once told me "you have a lot of confidence." I wasn't sure how to take that. I still am not sure what to think of it. Sometimes when people have "confidence" they are cocky. And I DEFINITELY do not want to be that. And if you were to ask me my top 5 characteristics, confidence would not be even close to the top of the list. I mean, not even on the list at all. And what got me thinking about all of this was something that has happened this week. I was sick for pretty much the whole week (I think I might be feeling better, knock on wood!), and against my better judgment I stuck to my running plan. Well that just didn't work. I was sick with a chest cold, so when I started running, it was like I was gasping for air and my heart rate was WAY to high WAY to quickly. I couldn't run for more then 4 minutes. And of course because I guess I don't listen to my better judgment at all I tried and tried again, day after day. And each day I would get off the darn treadmill and be kind of sad. My confidence in running was completely out the window and I was supposed to be in full training mode. I even told AA last night, in a completely dramatized voice, "what if I never am able to run again?" Lord please help that amazing man!

Confidence is a funny thing. It is there one second and then completely gone the next. Thoughts?

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Who am I?

First, do you like the new layout? I figured I would spice things up a little, because, well you know, I'm spicy? Anyway, this font is called "covered by grace." I almost fell off my chair right then and there. I love it! Now every time I look at this blog I will be reminded of what I truly am, covered by the grace Jesus has given me.

I am reading this book right now, and loving it. It is eye opening, heart breaking and overall great reminder to live as Jesus wants us to live, not because He tells us to, but because we have a relationship with Him. I was reading today and came across a great line, "I learned to equate what I did with who I was." I started to think about what that meant in my life. The chapter was talking about the past sin in our life and how we can equate some of the sinful things we have done with actually who we are as people. But as I started to think more about it, I started to think about the titles I put on my life: wife, sister, friend, runner, ect. And I started to wonder, are those titles overshadowing the one title that defines my life, Christ follower? I hope not, and after reading this I will make stronger efforts for that not to happen. What a good reminder for a Wednesday.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

I'm baaaaaaackkkk.....

Yup, that's right! I really haven't gone anywhere. I have still been reading all your blogs, still running and still loving our Savior. I am not really sure why I stopped blogging...okay that is a lie, yes I do. First I got lazy! Second I didn't think anyone was reading. And third, I lost some motivation. I started this blog to chronicle the steps to my first full marathon and the lessons that God had for me along the way. And then when I finished said marathon I didn't really know the purpose of continual blogging. However, there have been many times when I have been running and I think, "I should blog about this," or when Jesus slaps me with a lesson that I needed to learn or even a quiet whisper of His goodness and I think, "yup this is blog worthy!" But then we go back to point numero uno...I got lazy. So today, Tuesday, I am committing to blog at least three times a week. Help keep me accountable people! I really do like blogging because I can look back at who I used to be, and see the transformation of my running life, but more importantly the life that God has for me.

So with that let me tell you, that church on Sunday was on the best sermons I have ever heard (I am going to listen to it again soon and will blog about it soon) and then we went home and ran. Oh boy...I should have just stopped at church because our 5 miler was on of the worst runs I have ever been on. I felt like I couldn't catch my breathe the whole time, it was freezing and my Jamaican sprinter and I are still getting used to running with each other. So saying all of that, you know what happened next, I started crying at mile 4. Let me tell you...when it is freezing, you can't catch your breath to start with and now you are crying...recipe for DISASTER!

Are you confused on why I keep saying "our" and "us"? Well let me inform you on what is happening March 27, my Jamaican sprinter (JS) and I are going to Dallas to run the Rock n Roll Half with Katie and Rob. Yes you heard me correct, my Jamaican Sprinter is running his first half! WOOT WOOT! I love it! And let me also tell you....he made this decision on his own!

With all of this said I feel like 2011 is going to be a huge year! The Lord continues to teach me more and more each day and I am in a continual learning stage of learning to walk in His story, not the worlds. I can't wait to see where running takes me and the lessons I learn through that. I am excited for JS to run his first half, for Megs to pound the pavement again, for KB to be reunited at a start line and for new friends to find out how crazy this whole running thing is! I am not sure what this year looks like, but I do know this...God is good and I cant wait to see the story He is writing!

PS...on a completely different note...can someone teach me how to use Google reader? I am obviously not so tech friendly.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Race Report

Finally...race report time! Gosh sorry...things have been busy, but I am back!

The day before the race Michelle came in from Portland to run her FIRST half marathon. I had convinced her a while ago to give this one a try. It was close to my house and cheap. She agreed and it was off to the races for a couple months of training. I would call and email to check up on her to make sure she was still liking running. She always told me she did and that she was practicing, hill and speed work! Who! She ws doing a lot more then I was, that was for sure. I was in maintenance mode the whole summer after my marathon so I never did anything more then just run, which was OKAY by me.

When she got to my house we were off to pick up our packets and BRIGHT green shirts. We made some pasta dinner and made sure Michelle had an extra two pieces of bread. That is what is nice about the night before a race...bread is your best friend. We scooted over to Molly Moons for some ice cream, I know weird, and then we were off to bed. The race started a little later then most, so it was weird to "sleep in" the morning of a race. It wasn't raining yet, but holy moly was it cold. AA drove us to the race...he's the best...and gave us blankies to wrap up in. We found Aunt Laura and Chet and Judy (the owners of Jock and Jill and my relatives!) and chatted with them for a while. I looked over at one point and noticed two women wearing matching outfits and looked up and who was it but Jill with Running to Sanity and Mel with Tall Mom on the Run!!! Ran over there to say hi and give pre race hugs, chat about how cold it was and how they should come to Alki to run with me soon! Chris and Meg arrived and chatted with them before we had to go and line up. I have to say it was weird to not line up with Meg. She is always right next to me when we start races. Right there to pray and laugh at each other. But don't you worry people...she will be back in action before you know it. She will soon be a running MOMMA!!!!!! Can you tell I am excited for Siena to join us on our runs???!!!!

Finally it was time to line up and I could tell Michelle was getting a little nervous. Right before the gun went off I prayed for us and then were off! Spotted AA and Meg right at the start line, gave them a wave and then tried to get into a groove. It is so hard to set your pace and what not with so many people around you. I planned on running with Michelle until she sped off. I knew she was in better shape then I was and that she would take off soon, even if it was her first half. We stayed with Aunt Laura for a while chatting about doing races in WARMER climates. :) I had never stayed with Laura that long during races so I was kind of proud of myself. But just like I predicted Michelle and Laura started to pick up the pace. I could have stayed with them, but I really didn't want to die and go to a slow crawl at the end miles. So I let them go and settled in. I was feeling good and at every mile I checked my watch and had to calculate where I was. My new shoes don't have the Nike thing so my Nike watch is pretty much useless. I am asking for a Garmin for Christmas I think...! Anyway, I knew if I could keep my pace I might be able to break two hours! I wanted that sooo bad. I kept Michelle in my view the whole time and around mile 5 I finally caught up to her. As we passed the mile marker I checked my watch and told her we were kicking some major butt! I started to pull away expecting her to join but she fell back. I wanted to see if I could keep this pace so I kept going. At mile 6.5 I took half a GU, something I would later regret. I should have taken the whole thing, because at mile 10 I WAS STARVING!!!

I saw Meg and AA at mile 7 and told them to cheer hard for Michelle who was right behind me. I love seeing people on the course! It helps so much. After I saw them, though I noticed I was slowing down and couldn't get my pace back. Lack of hill training hurt me and my legs couldn't recover after the figure 8 hill earlier in the race. I kept asking God "please give me Your power and Your strength." I kept going though and at mile 10 I was hurting. My hip hurts, I was hungry and I then realized I wasn't going to make 2 hours. I was sad, until I looked over and who was coming up on me but Mel and Jill! Mel told me to stay with them, she was coaching and pacing Jill to a PR. I stayed with them for just a little bit but they had jet engines under their shoes and I let them go. My hip was killing and didn't want to have something really bad happen. Jill raced to a kick butt PR and Mel has found a new love in pacing and coaching. I love it!

Finally the finish line was right around the corner and I was feeling horrible. When I saw AA right before the finish line I looked him right in the eye and told him "I need help!" Crossed the finish line at 2:05 and bend completely in half. I need to stop doing that because medical comes racing over thinking I am dying. Which I kind of think too, but then in 2 minutes I am fine again! :) I grabbed a doughnut and water and went to go stand by the finish to watch Michelle finish. She finished so strong at 2:19 and was so happy it was over! :) She did AMAZING!

After some eating and sitting we decided it was time to hit the road. Michelle was back off to Portland. On the way home I knew my skin was in trouble. I was chaffing so bad and I knew my shower would hurt. Sure enough I took off my clothes and before I got in the shower I looked in the mirror and was bleeding from my sports bra strap and my shorts strap. Does this sound familiar?? Yea haven't learned my lesson yet. Got in the shower and started crying and screaming. AA handed me Advil and I cried the whole shower because it hurt so bad. Oh well, the next morning I was fine again! :)

Over all a great race. One more race in October and then I am done running long for the season. I am starting P90X soon...oh gosh! I am off for a 6 miler today after work on Alki! Should be a good one for some personal time with my main man JESUS!

For pictures, check out Michelle's facebook here!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Super Jock and Jill

Super Jock N Jill recap coming soon. Here are the stats:

Finish time: 2 hours 5 minutes and 20 seconds
Finish time 2009: 2 hours 11 minutes 28 seconds

SOO glad I beat last year's time!

Even though I didn't finish in under two hours like I hoped I am still amazed that God has given me the opportunity and ability to run. More on this later!

PS...Michelle rocked her first half marathon finishing in 2 hours 19 minutes. You go MUSH!!!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Something to think about...

So I have been running constantly for the last couple weeks. Sorry I have not blogged yet. I just haven't had any funny or inspirational things to share. I just put my shoes on, go out and run. A little boring, but I know what I am running for, to see a best friends finish her half marathon. So I run and run and will run again tomorrow and probably the next day. Did I tell you I got new shoes? Shout out to Super Jock and Jill. They are fabulous!!! I did have a fabulous run last Saturday. AA ran with me for the first 4 miles and then I was on my own for 7 more. I ran pretty fast and I wished I would have worn my watch, but part of it is freeing without your watch. I have to figure out how to attach my Nikeplus thingy to my new non-Nike shoes.

While on my runs this week I started to think about all these new movies and books that are out that supposedly talk about God. "Eat, Pray, Love" "Woman, Food and God," and "The Secret". I know these have all been around a while, but with the movie staring the one and only Julia Roberts all of these books and movies have come out of the wood-works. It makes sense that ll of these types of books and movies are such a huge success. So many people look for purpose in their life, want healing and want to know why this world spins. The problem is these authors and producers use the words, God and Pray way too liberally. I was watching an interview with the lady that wrote, Women, Food and God. When asked what the God part of the book was about she was quick to say it wasn't about a God or a spiritual God. It was more about how everything was God, the trees are God, the orange is God, ect. Comma Wha??? Then I started to hear more about Eat, Pray, Love and how to pray part of the book is taken not a literal sense but a figurative sense. That everyone has a different view of pray. These two things struck me and struck a cord in my heart. So many different people are learning about "God" and "Praying" and the sad truth is, they aren't learning anything about what those two topics actually mean. Ths weekend I just read about a woman who went to a "camp" with the man who wrote "The Secret". She ended up dying in a sweat tent, because the man told her she could push through her own limitations. Not only was that sad, but these people spend tens of thousands of dollars to be told an utter and complete lie. I don't care what Oprah says, or the "radical transformations" people have had with these books and movies, they are filling people's heads with the non-truth. The only truth that talks about the real God, what prayer actually is, and that there is no secret is the Bible.

I am still not quite sure why I have gotten so heated in the last couple weeks about all of this. It doesn't bother me if you write a book about dieting or traveling, but it does bother me when you through words like pray and God around. So the point of this post...well I guess there is no point, other then I am extremely worried with the direction that main stream media is taking eternity. This topic sure gave me a lot to think about while running the last couple weeks. Hmmmmm....your thoughts?

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Fire, sweat, oh my!

Today was a hard hard day to run. I hopped on the torcher chamber, I mean treadmill, and started off on my run. I have some new sneakers so I was testing them out. I always run a couple of times in a pair of shoes before I decide if they are keepers. Does that make me a bad person, if I return them? Hmmm, probably huh? As I started running my legs would not fire, they refused to get going. Usually the first mile or so it hurts a little bit, as my legs decide to wake up and join the rest of my body on the run, but not this morning. They were screaming at me to stop. I told them to pipe down and keep running, but nope they killed. So at 2.5 miles I stopped. I can count on one hand how many times I have stopped short of my goal run, but this morning it just wasn't in the cards. And you know what made me most mad? I was watching the Today Show and they were about to explain why Bristol Palin and her weirdo boyfriend broke up for the millionth time! But I missed it because I couldn't keep running! Ugh! Oh the small joys in the life! :)

I ran on Monday, an 8 miler in the HEAT! I know I am from Seattle and anything above 70 is a heat wave and everyone runs to Home Depot to by an AC unit and that in the winter we get one snow flake and all of the city gets shut down, but Monday was HOT. I started running and I almost started sweating immediately. And I am no girl sweater...no no. Have you met my father? Have you seen him after a run....N.A.S.T.Y. I got his genes. I am so nasty sick I almost can't handle it. I knew I was in trouble when at mile 4ish, right as I was about to turn around I went to wipe sweat from some part of my body and it felt like sand paper...uh oh....SALTING. How was I already salting at mile 4? I love salting...I think it is kind of cool. Again, I am a "runner," I start at gross. I was running, now to just find a water fountain. I found one and finished up my 8 miler, feeling slow and sluggish. I didn't even want to look at my watch to see my time. Uh it was going to be bad. Until I looked at it and it wasn't bad at all! 1 hour 12 minutes. A 9min 2 sec pace. HA! Love it when that happens!

I was reading a blog post the other day from my pastor. The man is brilliant, so sometimes it takes a LOT of thinking and a couple read throughs to be able to completely get what he is saying. But this last one was all about goals he had set out for himself and how most of those goals never came true, but what was so exciting was that the life that designed for him, instead of those goals was far more interesting, fun, challenging, rewarding, Christ centered and loving then he would have ever designed for himself. And the one and only person to thank for that was Jesus. Then at the end of his post he left it with, "Thank you Jesus for the life, I have yet to live and the adventure that awaits as I follow in Your footsteps!" Wow! To pray for the future like that, to know that the life He designed is far more then we could ever plan for ourselves. I am putting that prayer on a sticky note, and sticking it on the bathroom mirror so that everyday I will not forget to thank my Savior for the adventure that awaits.